Indulging (just a little bit)

Last week, I let myself indulge again in the idea of decorating a nursery. I even convinced Dan to take a quick tour through the baby section at Target. We looked at cribs, and playpens, and bedding, and baskets, and paint colors...and all the other little things that remind me of what's (hopefully) at the end of this road.

We talked about how to arrange the room so it would be easy to make into a nursery with a day or two of notice, but wouldn't have to sit there as a constant reminder of what we don't have. This is such a strange journey we've chosen (or that's chosen us?) and sometimes it's hard to imagine how a family, MY family, will come from such a strange path. But it will. And I have to remember that.

And every once in a while, I have to indulge...just a little bit...to remind myself that our baby is still out there. And will be home soon. Exactly when it's supposed to happen.